We’re all drowning!

I hate to say it but having your shit together 100% of the time just isn’t possible!

It feels like I constantly have hundreds of thoughts running through my head, lists of things that need to be done, that sometimes it gets so loud in there and I just can’t keep up. Just keep swimming, I’m pushing myself but I’m growing exhausted, so exhausted to the point that I’m barely keeping my head above the water. Soon the waves will overwhelm and consume me, I’ll drown. When I feel like I’m drowning and the current is pulling me in deeper, I’m brought back to reality with the smiles I see on the faces of my children. I’m surrounded by love, I’m grateful and my heart is full. I’ve got this, I’ll tell myself whilst sporting a brave face. I just need a couple of minutes peace to gather my jumbled thoughts. Close your eyes, take a deep breath – but just like the silence in the night, a complete silence is non-existent.

See really, we’re all drowning! We’re all trying to keep up with the here and now. We are all trying to do so much in such a short space of time. We keep sane by telling ourselves – everyone else does it so why can’t I? But not everyone is built the same! I can only juggle so much before feeling like my chest is getting tighter and lifes grip on me begins to suffocate. I’m left a dead weight, lifeless, whilst fighting to keep it all together. Its okay to feel tired, tired of not being where you want to be, tired of routine, tired of being tired. I’m tired.

***

The sun blares into the cracks of the blind. To my left, he’s there laying next to me, we hold hands. The door opens and the kids run in – I love you mum. Its in that moment that I love my life a little bit more than I did yesterday. Today is a new day, you’re not drowning anymore!

xox

44 Comments

  1. Rhian Westbury March 17, 2017 / 5:11 pm

    I think this is why it’s so important to take time out for yourself and do what makes you happy so things don’t get on top of you. I try to have me time as often as I can even if it’s just half an hour to watch a TV show or an evening to pamper myself. I also find extensive to do lists’ and my bullet journal help me feel like I am drowning much less x

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 17, 2017 / 7:08 pm

      I agree! Taking time out is a must do!!! We all need time out to just focus on ourselves!

  2. Melanie March 17, 2017 / 5:42 pm

    Wow this is a great piece and I know exactly what you mean…me time is important 🙂 x

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 17, 2017 / 7:09 pm

      Thank you!! It really is and it doesn’t get to happen very often, I’m grateful when it does I can recharge!

  3. Ashleigh March 17, 2017 / 5:51 pm

    Such a powerful blog post. Take a break lovely and things will fall into place xx

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 17, 2017 / 7:10 pm

      Thank you!! We all need to take a break and stop forgetting about ourselves.

  4. Sarah Bailey March 17, 2017 / 6:47 pm

    This feeling you are describing is very familiar to me! We are all trying to cram so much into limited time, we really need to take a step back at times and evaluate how important everything we are trying to is. We expect too much from ourselves at times and constantly feeling as though we are drowning is not good for us.

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 17, 2017 / 7:11 pm

      Absolutely its hard to not put pressure on ourselves!

  5. Lianne March 17, 2017 / 6:53 pm

    Very true. It’s so easy to get overwhelmed with life. I’m finding things very hard adapting to life as a single mum of 2 at the moment.

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 17, 2017 / 7:13 pm

      It really is! Man I praise single parents, its hard enough raising children with help of a spouse!

  6. Lisa prince March 17, 2017 / 8:54 pm

    this is a lovely piece of writing and i totally agree being um to 8 i know how important time is x

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 17, 2017 / 10:14 pm

      Wow 8!! You’re a wonder woman!! Glad you enjoyed the read!

  7. Becca March 17, 2017 / 10:27 pm

    Basically sums up how I feel most of the time – well written post Hun x

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 18, 2017 / 10:32 am

      Thank you!! Its important not to forget that everyone has moments like these so don’t feel alone!

  8. Whatlauraloves March 18, 2017 / 1:48 am

    LOVED THIS POST!! I definitely dont feel as though I’ve got my shit together at all and its frustrating me! xxx

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 18, 2017 / 10:33 am

      It frustrates me too!! I get so stressed out when things don’t go the way I plan but it happens! Really pleased to hear you enjoyed this one!!

  9. Ladies Pass It On March 18, 2017 / 10:53 am

    I have a saying ‘Just Keep Swimming’ and it really is something to live by. We are all just paddling furiously under the surface!

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 18, 2017 / 5:40 pm

      Oh yes!!!

  10. Natasha Mairs March 18, 2017 / 3:34 pm

    oh wow, reading this felt like you was saying everything thats in my mind right now

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 18, 2017 / 5:41 pm

      Awwwh!! I’m glad its not just me in a way really glad people are enjoying the read!

  11. Shoshana Sue March 18, 2017 / 3:39 pm

    This is so real! My kids too are my source of ‘you got to keep going’ whenever i feel like I am drowning

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 18, 2017 / 5:42 pm

      They are everything!!

  12. stephanie March 18, 2017 / 5:35 pm

    I’m glad I’m not the only one who feels like this! It can be exhausting trying to have everything together! x

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 18, 2017 / 5:42 pm

      Oh can’t it!!? Lifes little struggles, but be grateful we don’t always feel like this!

  13. rachel March 18, 2017 / 9:49 pm

    I think when you feel like this you take time to catch your breath and write it down, breathe deep and then own it x

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 18, 2017 / 11:16 pm

      Always seems to help!

  14. Baby Isabella March 19, 2017 / 3:46 pm

    My mummy can totally relate to this! She often feels like she is drowning especially since coming out of hospital.

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 19, 2017 / 7:50 pm

      life can make us all feel this way at some point!

  15. Jessica | growchangeaccept March 19, 2017 / 6:41 pm

    This is so beautiful. Honestly feel your words, I love this so much. Thank you so much for sharing, this message is so important!

    Jessica | growchangeaccept.co.uk

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 19, 2017 / 7:50 pm

      Thank you! It makes me feel so happy that you enjoyed this! xox

  16. MELANIE EDJOURIAN March 19, 2017 / 8:17 pm

    I know what you mean about feeling like you are drowning. Sometimes it can be so hard to keep on top of everything you need to being a mum.

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 19, 2017 / 8:33 pm

      For sure!! So many responsibilities and tasks its easy to forget about yourself for a while!

  17. Rachel March 19, 2017 / 11:58 pm

    Really loved this post, I can really relate to this post and sometimes feel like I’m drowning! xo

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 20, 2017 / 11:56 am

      Glad you enjoyed the read!! I’m really pleased its relatable too, makes me feel less terrible!

  18. chloe griffiths March 20, 2017 / 10:14 am

    such a nice post to remind us all to breathe and keep our heads above the water xo

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 20, 2017 / 11:57 am

      Absolutely!! Really glad you resonated with this!

  19. Yaya March 20, 2017 / 11:49 am

    Self care is so important in so many ways. Even taking an hr to yourself in bits and pieces throughout the day can help the water level go down that little bit more. xx

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 20, 2017 / 11:58 am

      Absolutely!!!

  20. Ayesha Farhad March 21, 2017 / 2:41 pm

    ah! I know exactly how you feel!
    You’ve written it so gracefully! LOVE IT!

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 22, 2017 / 11:56 am

      Thanks so much!! Really glad you enjoyed the read!!

  21. Nayna Kanabar March 21, 2017 / 7:46 pm

    What a beautiful piece of writing, its capturing all the emotions so well.

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 22, 2017 / 11:58 am

      Thanks so much, I was hoping it would have an effect so I’m glad its going down well!

  22. Jacqui Paterson March 21, 2017 / 10:10 pm

    Such a roller coaster, this motherhood lark, isn’t it? Up one day, down the next… but always more ups than downs. xx

    • francescaferrarinelson@yahoo.co.uk March 22, 2017 / 11:58 am

      Absolutely couldn’t agree more!!

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